photo credits to Ros, and Travis ♥

where's that smile, where's that smile. I've a good mind to just escape, for a while.

i feel pretty damn fucked up. no idea why i'm even typing this here. maybe its the best place to rant, because i don't really want to hurt anybody or to add to anyone else's misery. & I kinda feel that people around me won't even get me anyway. I'm thankful for ros, and ros, and ros, and ros. Hopefully running in the wee hours in the morning would take away abit of this.

i feel stressed from work. technically not "work stress" stress, because i really doubt anyone can get any stress from working along Haji Lane -.- Its the damn expectations on the days I am required to turn up/I can turn up. The expectations of me being able to just pick any damn day out of the holidays to complete projects. I would obviously prioritize my school and homework at the top of my list, but when we decide like 1 or 2 days before hand its just too hard for me to find a way out of work, because I cant just back out like that. Then again, if i dont turn up for project meetings, i'm pretty damn sure my group mates may mark me down.

I scrolled down the list on my msn just now, read a couple of blogs, and kinda saw things from a different perspective. In our own eyes, WE (technically "I") are always the one doing the most work, the one being pro-active, the one trying to get things started and everyone else is just either playing a fool, not doing anything, or not giving a shit about you. Maybe thats why.

Talking to ros, I kinda figured where the stress comes from, and where they stand on the list. wish at least a few of you guys understood. Now i'm really thinking if i made the wrong choice to work. Don't ask me to quit, cause its just not that easy. You don't quit school just cause you failed an exam. I doubt anyone would even try to understand things from my point of view or even see what im getting at or what the "big" fuss is about. forget it, i'll learn to live with it. (actually i could do with some comfort, some very good comfort ): )

I AM BLOODY NAGGY LA.

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Yesterday, I had lunch with wern.
I specially made a trip down to have lunch with wern.
I hope wern appreciates it.
Was almost late for NRA, but made it in time anyway.
Headed to heeren with jhong, jadd, chansee and Z after class to choose the present.
Then dinner at kobayashi, when james and wenmei arrived with the strawberry shortcake! :D
While waiting for the late birthday boy, jhong and james went to parapara -.-


wtj

Labels: juu, nra, rant

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